Given the obvious fact that, with the earmarks, receiving the letters, and the short-circuiting of my libido medically, that I am a symbol of the generation that was immolated, the question haunts me though, why in the world would my peers go along with it?   Why would making me a laughingstock in the name of Lennon for his supposed killers, underwritten by the accepted truth he would have done that (not least because he did) instead of warning, saving lives?   It's something a person just can't look at.  Why did my peers want this to happen to me more than they wanted timely warning and the truth to save lives and protect people?